[12 Apr 2009|12:18am] hey!

[17 Jan 2009|01:17am] [ mood | bummed ] what am i doing wrong? hey!

text messages with my mother [09 Dec 2008|09:11pm] Mom: "Santa needs ideas..." (I e-mail a few ideas) Me: "Did Santa get my list?" Mom: "How should I know? I don't know the man!!" hey!

[28 Nov 2008|12:13pm] really though, i love my family and the fact that we all took a shot of tequila (my mothers idea) before thanksgiving dinner. seriously... i love it. hey!

[05 Nov 2008|12:59am] i think that barack obama is a truly beautiful human being. hey!

[12 Oct 2008|06:57pm] i hate people who think they are so above everything and everyone. cut it out! you're annoying! hey!

[06 Oct 2008|11:33pm] i love my life and everyone in it. i love my family more than anything in this entire world. i'm so grateful for everything that has been happening the past few weeks and i can't describe this feeling i have towards life but i'm just excited for everything and so lucky and i don't ever want to forget that. hey!

[28 Aug 2008|01:27am] [ mood | discontent ] you know the cheers theme song and how it's like "sometimes you wanna go where everybody knows your name"? well, sometimes i wanna go where nobody knows my name. ((3)) | hey!

[07 Aug 2008|02:20am] really just sick of it all hey!

[03 Jun 2008|10:47pm] "i wanted to say hi cause i miss you and i hope you are feeling fine and hopeful. sometimes it's hard, huh!" hey!

[12 May 2008|06:10pm] GROW UP. hey!

[07 May 2008|01:09pm] i saw the bouncing souls on sunday and it was prime. "if you're looking for something, stop looking! because you've already got it! it's you!" i also saw saves the day on saturday with my best friend, which was awesome. and i bought saves the day bug sessions 2 & 3, and i was definitely at the show that these were recorded at which makes bug sessions extra awesome. ITS SUMMER TIME! hey!

[04 May 2008|12:25am] ((1)) | hey!

[26 Apr 2008|08:31pm] "I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade." hey!

[24 Apr 2008|08:59am] fuck you. ((1)) | hey!

[19 Apr 2008|02:17am] so i guess i wore my heart on my sleeve and i mistook your drunkeness for sincerity. chalk it up to experience, fuck it up to experience. and still i clinged to it the late night phone calls and this perfect connection through bad reception (yeah right) is it hanging up or hanging out? hey!

[10 Apr 2008|04:58pm] life i find myself loving you more and more with each and every minute. maybe it's the weather but there is something about today that is just really really great. hey!

[07 Apr 2008|05:56pm] i know exactly where i wanna be! i know exactly where i wanna be! hey!

[01 Apr 2008|11:27am] [ mood | OB LA DI OB LA DA ] i've come to some pretty stark realizations in the past week but honestly it doesn't really bother me at all anymore. what i've learned: never let anyone make you feel like you aren't worth it. you don't need someone like that in your life AT ALL. never let anyone fake anything to you. karma does exist. never let anyone treat you like you are easily replaced. don't try to settle for someone who flat out tells you they don't want you around. fear and love can feel an awful lot alike, learn to tell the difference. when you think you're at your worst, something good always comes along to pick you right back up if you deserve it. (and you always deserve to get what you're giving) friendships go BOTH WAYS. i'm not going to sit here and talk to you and be nice to you whenever it's convenient for YOU. what kind of one way street is that? no thanks, i'd rather not waste my time. i never want to become the type of person who is completely inconsiderate of someone's feelings, especially if they were at one point really close to my heart. and i know that i never will become that person. i was pretty down on myself for a little why because i thought that i was wrong in trying to reestablish a connection that i thought was signifigant, because i was still trying to care and comfort someone who i thought would have always done the same for me. as it turns out, i was completely and utterly wrong. but i wasn't wrong in the way i acted, and i know this because if i felt it was right, then it was right. because i never wanted to hurt anyone's feelings and i wanted to make everything better. i didn't, but i tried. and i never said anything to deliberately hurt anyone. i could never do that, that's just not the type of person that i am. and if anyone can easily cut me out of their life and insult me for no apparent reason, then why would i ever want that person a part of mine? thanks for helping me realize this. this is all your loss, because you lost someone who genuinely cared about you. all i lost was someone who didn't think much of me anyway. remember, actions speak louder than words. if i'm coming off as bitter, i'm really not trying to. no hard feelings. seriously. my main point is that i've moved on already and that's all you need to know. (and i'm doing great, by the way, thanks for asking) ((1)) | hey!

[28 Mar 2008|01:39am] [ mood | :)!!!!! ] dear life, i love when you turn everything around for me. seriously, it's the most wonderful thing. i love you. love meghan. hey!

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